Almost a full year later....My Bridals!

Just looking through old pictures on my laptop. My laptop is super old and AJ has a newer one, so I hardly ever get on my laptop anymore. I started looking at some of our engagements, then I started looking at my bridals. I haven't ever posted them up on facebook or anything, I don't know why, I guess I just got lazy. Or maybe because I have a hard time thinking about our wedding since it wasn't exactly perfect and I just tried to forget about it all.....don't judge me- it was MY wedding and I was a brat and I still get kind of mad thinking back about it and everything that happened...I guess I haven't perfected the whole forgiveness-forgive, forget, move on thing. But hey I'm not perfect and I'm still trying to get over it. Maybe one day I'll blog about it when I can express myself politely without getting angry. Anywhoooots thought I'd share some of my favorite bridal shots since I haven't shared them with anyone yet, well besides my family and the few I had up at our reception.

This is at Utah Capitol and it was July I believe and it was SOOOO HOT! I was standing up there barefoot and after about 5 minutes I started to get so hot! I was sweating and feeling like I was going to pass out, like for real I had to get down and sit and drink water.  But it was worth it because I LOVE this shot.

I am in love with my dress. As I should be because it was not cheap! "The Crumb Catcher" -that's what I named it, because that's what the ruffle on the top is called. I love the beautiful bead work. And since it was originally sleeveless the poor seamstress who added the sleeves had so much work to do. She actually had to hand bead the sleeves. She said it took her 15 hours total! (off topic: hi, I miss being skinny, didn't even have to wear a....what are those things called that hold you in and make ur waist skinny and are so tight you can't breathe? yeah, well one of those, I didn't wear one of those.)

Just like this one...

The awkward "pretend you're having so much fun walking down some stairs"...but really I'm thinking..don't fall!

And I loved the back of the dress also...again my poor seamstress. 

This is my face, semi up close and personal. 

I really liked the outdoors nature pictures we took. The sun had started to go down and I didn't feel like I was melting. But my dress got pretty dirty..I also spilled some lipgloss on it..always a clumsy hot mess! (ask AJ he teases me that I can't eat anything without getting it on my clothes, which I can't deny.)

Kind of a weird face, but I like this picture. That's one thing I wish I could change about my pics, she kept having me make the serious face, which is cool, I like to look "fierce" every once in a while lol, but I think it's more "ME" when I smile. I wish I had more happy looking smiley pictures, but no big deal, I still love the pictures we took.

Just obsessed with my dress. I really loved that it wasn't white. It's ivory, and it's actually a pretty dark shade of ivory. I don't know why, but I never wanted a white dress.

B&W lovely-ness.

I had a lot of fun taking my bridals and I'm happy with them! I'm glad I have this moment in my life captured especially since I think I look better and was actually happier in these pictures than I was in the ones I actually took the day of my wedding. Hahaha.

If you're wondering, my photographer was this awesome lady named Serafi, you can find her on FB with the name Photography by Serafi. She takes some really clean beautiful shots. Well thanks for strolling down memory lane from last year with me! :)