Big Booty B*tches!

Well just singular, so really, big booty b*tch. And actually this is referring to ME. Let me tell you a story I'm ashamed to share.

date: monday 1/23/12

weather: sunny and warm

mood: bad...fairly itchybay

Monday morning I was having a "woke up on the wrong side of the bed" kind of day. My mind felt scattered and I was running around trying to do everything I needed to and I just felt so grumpy. I felt tired and didn't want to do anything. I was thinking all negative things in my head. It may have had to do with the fact that I had used all of sunday and stayed up sunday night to do homework (i had to turn my fb off just so i could focus properly, it's still off). I was exhausted and just wanted to sleep all day.

BUT I had class at 840. 

Then I had to go to the health center and do my TB test. 

After that strolled on over to the aloha center to get my ID card...finally. 

Grabbed a vitamin water while I was in there and got stuck behind some stupid foreign who was purchasing a calling card and the dumb cashier didn't really know how to answer all her questions so she had to run to the back and clarify something so I basically stood in line for like EVER just for a stupid overpriced drink. (and i feel kind of bad calling the cashier dumb and thinking it in my head at the time too cuz i know she was just trying to do her job and she was actually really nice to me when i bought my drink...so i'm sorry) 

After that I had to run to the library to print some things out. 

After that I went outside cuz it was too cold in the library and sat at a table reading my scriptures for my D&C class. 

I went to class. 

After class I had to book it all the way to PCC so that I could get to work on time. 

I got there and I really HATE all the costumes photo poly has right now. I just think they're all hideous. I HATE having to pick something to wear cuz I don't like any of it. Anyways I chose to wear this old tealish dress that's been there forever. It's one of the only ones that's a dress with a zipper up the back. So I put it on and think it's a little snug but I don't think its too bad so I leave it on. blah blah blah. bad mood festers. I don't really like any of the people I'm working with cuz most of them are new and irritz...care about if they ever read this. IRRITZ. more blah blah blah. everyone that I don't like finishes their shift and all that's left is me, my guy partner, and the guy photographer. Canoe show was going on so no one was around. Me and my partner were sitting down on the wall and talking for a good few minutes and I wasn't moving around at all...I was in the same position for a while and then all of a freeeaking sudden I hear a quiet *POP* and I feel my dress loosen up a little bit!! GAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!! >8(  I feel my back and YUP...feeling some skin back there...pretty much my butt and lower back. FREEEEEEEAAAK! I'm just thinking "reeeeaaally monday??" I open my eyes all big and tell my partner I just popped my dress open LOL. and he had two pieces to his costume, both wraps so I ask him for one of his wraps and he tries to help wrap it around me to cover my butt without me exposing anything. and I have to go back to the office and change into another outfit. As he's doing this I'm just kind of telling him how fat I feel and that I never thought that I'd ever pop open a dress (it happens more than you think...but I always think it only happened to that fat girls! haha maybe that's me now!) And that's when I just kind of started laughing because the day had just sucked so bad already and that just TOPPED it the eff off. Like really?? At that point I couldn't really be mad any more I just thought the whole day reached a whole new level and there was no way to think about it except that it was just totally ridiculous. So I changed into a much LOOSER dress and head back out. My partner and the photographer both have this face like they wanna laugh but they don't wanna laugh so there just kind of looking at me like "uhhhh is it ok to laugh??" lol so I laughed then my partner said, "want a cookie??" to which I replied, "yes, the fat girl would like a cookie." LOL NEVER AGAIN.

So yeah F monday. Maybe it's because I skipped church on Sunday (i know. i know. tsk, tsk) to do homework and I just didn't start my week off the way I should have so that's why I was so cursed on monday. I had sooooooooo much homework, but I also acknowledge that if I had been doing it earlier like I should have then it wouldn't have all piled up....but I AM A PROCRASTINATOR. like I can't help it, that is who I am! I know I should have stayed home friday night and done homework but I didn't. I know I should have done it the next day, but going to makapuu with friends sounded like more fun. I know I should have done it even saturday night, but quality time in town with my original branbury girls is something I would NEVER say no to. So see it had to be sunday...sunday became the catch up day and that's just they way the cookie crumbled...........in my mouth after I officially joined the big-booty-b*tches-fat-girls-who-pop-open-dresses-at-work-and-almost-moon-tourists-accidentally club.

and then there's this....lol

no one ever liked you anyways

Dear Homework,
I hate you. Please jump off a cliff and die an appropriately bloody death. I hate you more than I hate the annoying people who talk too loud in public places. More than the dumb students that walk around Laie barefoot cuz they think they're super cool hippies now and the social norms no longer apply. More than having to pee very badly, but not being anywhere near a bathroom. More than I hate when people lightly touch me and it's like I can feel where they touched me burning into my skin. More than this annoying as hell fly flying around all over my room right now. More than I hate forced "small talk". More than I hate my hair when it's wet. More than I hate when I can feel my butt/thighs jiggle. More than I hate waiting in super duper long lines at subway cuz it makes you stink.......
i hate YOU. DIE.
back to the college life.

Wash your face Wednesday

Just took my second shower of the day.....and it was ice cold and felt wonderful. Hawaii, you are HOT. Holy cow I was walking to Laie Elementary school today (for one of my classes I have to go there once a week and help out a teacher) and I about melted into the pavement on my way there.

Just to let you all know one of my "things" is I HATE having a shiny face. Some people like that "dewy" "glowing" look....I just think it looks dirty. Like, "giiiiirrrrl wipe ur face off you got a major greasey face case going on!" And with only being here for almost 2 weeks and coming from the driest place on earth my skin seems to be tweaking out with the adjustment. The humidity and the heat is getting to me and I am soooooo sick of looking in the mirror and seeing SHINE on my nose and my t-zone. I just feel like I have to wash my face and scrub it every time I see it, but I know that's not healthy so I just try to rinse it off or wipe it down with a paper towel/napkin/toilet paper/anything with soaking up power (I heard starbucks napkins are great for this BONUS they're free!). I guess it's time to invest in those clean and clear oil absorbing sheets again...I didn't really ever have use for them in Utah. In Utah it's all about trying to keep my face moisturized lol.

This is what I feel like I look like except I know I don't...but don't you just wanna tell her to go wash her face??

Anyways that's my one complaint for the day and it's really not a big deal so life is still good!

ps.....you probably don't care but I really reeeaaalllly REEEEEAAAALLLLLLYYYY cry baby kine miss my boyfriend. I get to see him in Vegas next month though....that's pretty much where our relationship started almost exactly a year ago! Butterflies all over again and I just can't wait! :o)

Last year in Vegas at the Rugby 7's. So ready to do it again!

changes, goals revisited, traveling woes, and a thursday baby love giggle!

I am headed back to Hawaii!!!! I am sitting at the airport in Seattle. Thanks to my dear mother who made my plane ticket I have 2 layovers both about 3 1/2 hours................. BUT it was either fly ALL day today or leave yesterday. And I think the one extra day with my family and Aj was well worth an 18 hour travel day today. So no complaints here, besides thank goodness its 2012 and we can FLY somewhere in less than a day instead of having weeks of traveling by boat, horse, foot, ect... I'm grateful for technology. With that said...can someone PLEASE invent teleportation. Thanks.

Today was a rushed and sad morning. I went to bed at 4am, got up at 6am, showered, finished packing, and made sure I had everything. I said goodbye to my brothers, sisters, niece, and aj.. almost cried, but no tears..YET. Aj dropped me off at the airport. He came inside with me and helped carry my bags and the security line was a biznatch...seriously it was the longest I've ever seen it and he even waited in line with me all the way up to the front which took almost half an hour. I thought I was gonna miss my flight!....I only half wished I actually had lol.

I'm sad because I was just getting comfortable in Utah, but because one of my goals is to embrace change and overcome my fear of it, I am trying very hard not to let the sadness take over and miss everyone too much. So I'm excited to be going back to Hawaii and to get busy and back to work with school, but I'm gonna miss everyone back in Utah a lot! So to try to put the positive spin on it I'll talk about what I LIKE about this change. I LIKE that I get to go back to warmth and the beach and beautiful Hawaii. I LIKE that I have friends there that are excited to see me, so I know I won't be lonely. I LIKE that I will be able to run outside there. I LIKE that I'm gonna be busy with school. I LIKE that I'm going back to work at a place I enjoy working. I LIKE that my dad and mom are usually just about an hour away in pearl city so I can just go on over whenever I get home sick for family. I LIKE that I am pushing myself to do more with my life and trying things out of my comfort zone. I LOVE that I know me and Aj are going to be just fine through all of this. There I already feel better :)

Isn't it illegal or whatever to have a lighter on an airplane?? cuz I totally forgot I had a lighter in my purse and I went through security with it and they didn't eeeven catch it. Pretty much I'm at terrorist status right now. OOPS!


Oh! In attempt to do good on my goals I tried to inspire myself to add more color to my life by doing bright neon pink on my toes when I went with my sisters to get pedicures the other day (if you know me i HATE pink), I don't completely hate it. Also I went to Ross yesterday and was going to buy something bright....but then bought a gray and black pencil skirt instead...FAIL. but point is, I'm trying.

Anyways heres few more goals to add that I forgot to put down in my goals post:

- Watch less tv. Holy cow I've never been addicted to so many tv shows in my life as I am now! I blame my sister, Melissa, for knowing all the shows and watching them and getting me hooked...and I also blame the DVR for being so convenient, recording the shows and letting me watch them whenever I wanted. Can I just point out how ridiculous reality tv shows are? I'm watching people living their lives while I'm living mines on the couch....and I feel as if all of them aren't even reality cuz they're all FAKE. So I need to go out and live my life more instead of watching fake celebrities living theirs on crap tv shows. Idk they are just so addicting!...i love the kardashians...its such a guilty pleasure! SO YES LESS TV! 

- Fast at least once a month. I was talking with my bishop this past Sunday and he advised me and Aj both that we should both be fasting once or twice a month. Twice is a little ambitious for me since I'm not a good faster so my goal is at least fast for real on fast Sunday every month this year. My bishop said it will teach us to master ourselves and I honestly believe I NEED that.

Ok I just went to the bathroom and what is with people who can't figure out how to FLUSH a toilet??....seriously you just push the handle...or step on it with your foot like I do. Annoying.

- "You don't have to say it if you're already doing it." Does anyone else watch the Office? Well I love that show and one episode there's this annoying guy who knocks on someone's door and every time he hits the door he says "knock, knock, knock" and the guy says back to him, "You don't have to say it if you're already doing it." Which made me think about this girl who had a talk or testimony or something in church I can't remember where, but she said she was from a small town and there weren't many LDS where she was from and after high school she went to church somewhere and saw a boy from her high school and she went to say hi and he goes, "I didn't know you were Mormon." and because she came from a small place she figured everyone just knew she was LDS, but then she realized apparently to this guy she had grown up with, she had never done anything to SHOW that she was LDS. So I want to try to be able to SHOW that I'm LDS without having to say it. This means I have to watch my swears (my mom says I have a potty mouth), watch what I wear (i LIVE in tank tops), time to test out this "modest is hottest", and overall try to live my life so that people can SEE my standards...."You don't have to say it if you're already doing it"..i just love that!

Don't you hate it when someone comes and sits RIGHT NEXT to you (yes even one seat over is RIGHT NEXT to me haha) when there's like a million other places to sit. I feel like she's invaded MY space and now I have to smell her stink fast food..

Now to go kill another hour on facebook and pinterest until my flight starts to board! lol....another goal less fb....but I'm banking on school taking care of that by keeping me so busy that I won't want to get on fb..........yeeeeeah right! haha

One more traveling woe even though I'm not there yet I know I'm going to get irritated already when it happens so I might as well write it down..Don't you think it's just the most annoying and obvious thing in the whole entire world when at bag claim and you're waiting for the bags to even start coming out, but all these idiots think they have to be RIGHT at the edge of the bag claim BLOCKING everyone else from being able to get their bags? I always pick an open spot then stand a few feet back so that I can walk up when my bag comes around and then walk away. BUT it never fails that some IDIOT comes and stands RIGHT IN FRONT of me. It makes me so mad! But I always try to hit them with my bag when it comes around......they deserve to get hit for being stupid and oblivious to everyone else, blocking the conveyor belt, and being in the way.

For a Thursday Giggle:

She woke up wit the nappiest hair this morning...it was sticking straight up!

Go ahead and laugh! I miss my little Goose!