I get annoyed easily but I know what's important

These things irritate me:

-annoying people who are drama queens and thrive on creating drama for free.

-making decisions that will have a huge impact on future life.

-annoying people who can't give it up already and just be real.

-laying in bed at 3:00 in the morning because my mind is going.

-dirty people who can't find a garbage can that's a foot away from them.

-feeling tension in day to day life.

-trying to log into my school email and getting denied and not being able to figure out what's wrong. login? password? idk, but tried everything till I got locked out.

-having so many things going on that I can't remember what is when or what day it is or even all the things I need to do....I make list's then I lose them.
-not feeling prepared for wedding day...like physically..don't know what I want my face or hair to look like and my freaking bridals are next week! better decide QUICK.

-having to bite my tongue, or not even having the opportunity to express how I feel.

All things opposite of irritation:

love and eternity

this sweet thang, today I taught her to say "hi"

The gospel, seriously I look forward to Sundays and thoroughly enjoy ALL 3 hours.

These 2 fools and all they do for me.

Thee woman who lets me be a baby and listens to my blubbering crying/venting about all things irritating.

Life is moving along. Constantly reminding myself to remember to breathe and try to stay positive. ONE MORE MONTH TO GO. 

I hate..

When you get so pissed you cry. This day needs to hurry up and be over before my head explodes.

what's been on my mind lately

The world is kind of a sad place when you think about it. Sometimes I just think about it all and I feel weighed down by all the bad that happens. Lately I've been kind of obsessed with watching The First 48. I think I've started to like it better than fake tv crime shows because it's real life. It makes it more interesting, but it also makes me a little depressed. People calculating and executing a robbery only to get less than 100 bucks. Killing each other over drugs. Seeing how little people will kill another person for makes my insides twist and I'll admit it's brought me to tears. Senseless acts committed with no regard for human life or the value of a soul. Even watching the news is sometimes shocking and depressing. Hearing what some people are capable of doing to others sometimes leaves me feeling hopeless. Violent robberies. Abducting, sexually assaulting and killing a 6 year old girl. What is wrong with people? Maybe I should just stop watching the news and The First 48 because I'm obviously too emotional and easily depressed. But it just makes me think about life and about the things I'm doing and what I could do to make this world a better place. So maybe it's not such a bad thing.

Don't judge me, but I'm kind of a nerd in that I like to watch documentaries on netflix more than anything else (mostly because pretty much netflix sucks) and I watched this documentary called The Human Experience and it's about these 2 brothers that put themselves into different situations and try to experience life how it would be for a person in a different situation than themselves. The first one they did for about a week was living as homeless people in NYC. In one part they have this homeless lady talking and she shares and experience when she was sitting in the street and there were some dogs that were homeless or whatever just on the street and some people were all concerned about the dogs needing to be taken in and getting them off the streets and slowly one by one people offered to take the dogs home, while this lady was just sitting there homeless on the street obviously in need of probably food/shelter/love also. That's great for the dogs, but since when did the world become a place where a dog life is more valuable or important than human life?

See this should say "human" instead of "dog", not against saving dogs, but I just feel like we should help out our own species first.

And she continues to say something to the effect that aren't we all here to help our "brothers and sisters"...and really aren't we? I started to cry when she said that, because it's true, and I know I should start doing more for my brothers and sisters that are sharing this journey of life, in this fallen world. I don't even know where to start because I am just one person, but I've started with small things by trying to change the way I think and not to be mean or judgmental even just in my head and just trying to be more friendly to everyone I come in contact with. It's crazy these days, if we had people like the animal rights activists and environmentalists care for human life like they did for animals or the land maybe this world would be a little more happy and right. Anyways even though I get a little depressed watching these shows or learning of horrible things people have done, I know as long as there are good people in this world and people who believe in the atoning sacrifice our BROTHER Jesus Christ made, we aren't hopeless. I know there's a talk about having hope in this world when it's filled with news of the bad, I don't remember what it's called or who gave it, but maybe I should go search for it of lds.org. Anyways there's my 2 cents.

be kind. be kind. be kind.

PS. does anyone know how to "unfollow" people on here anymore?? I am retarded and feel like the button disappeared or is hiding from me...? please tell me I'm not the only lost one here.