Old Maid

Conversation I had last night at work with a tourist:

Old man in wheelchair: That hairstyle looks good on you.

Me: :) Thank you

Old man in wheelchair: How old are you? 19?

Me: No I'm 25

Old man in wheelchair: Whoa! You're an old maid already!

Me: :( ...thanks.

I wasn't offended. I laughed. Besides it was ironic to me because where does he get off calling me an old maid when he's sitting there old and broken like a prehistoric dinosaur?! haha I can't really be mad at old people. It's like they've lived their life and now they have a free pass to say, and sometimes do, whatever they feel like. They're exempt from the social norms. Old people are so delightful. I can't wait to be one.

WCC

Last semester I was totally feeling the 4.0 and being a motivated batch. (and I totally got that 4.0, high five to myself)

This semester I'm totally fine with just passing with a C. (I never liked D's cuz it's the same letter 'dumb' starts with)

Writing is my arch nemesis. (I can not for the life of me write a proper paper, I'm just not confident in my writing. But I love writing for me and no one else with no grammar and the technique of it all)

I'd much rather be reading for fun. I l.o.v.e to read, as long as its fun, exciting, thought provoking, and most importantly, MY CHOICE. Is there anything more hideous than a dull, boring, ridiculously overpriced, USED textbook?

School, you will be the death of me.

purple beaded star trinket

Two people staring at the same thing take turns describing what it is they see to one another. Neither of their descriptions sound anything remotely similar to the other. One person thinks the other person is out-of-their-mind crazy and vice versa. How can they be looking at the same thing, but not seeing the same thing? Craziness would definitely be a valid question. Maybe neither one of them is actually crazy though, maybe they just have two slight, but distinctly different perspectives.

*sigh*

I am not a selfish person. I think I'm quite the opposite actually. If allowed I think I would give give give till I had nothing left. I tried EVERYTHING. I DID everything. I GAVE my 100 percent. So why is it I'm made to feel that I should have done more....that I just "don't understand" implicating that if I could just "understand" than it would have made a world of difference. Does it even matter anymore? It shouldn't get to make me feel this way anymore. That's what's not fair. It shouldn't get to affect the way I view other people, but how can it not? Aggghhhh...if I had no head and no mind things would be sooooooo much easier.

Walls.

Involuntarily built.

Without permission.

Without MY permission.

Placing doubt, suspicion, and unbelief in the mind.

General mistrust.

Safer that way.

smile like you mean it.

Who's dentist sings along to Micheal Jackson, hums to Kesha, and whistles along with Bruno Mars? MY dentist. He's pretty hilarious. Oh, and he fixes my teeth too. After numbing what felt like my whole face and my tongue and getting one cavity filled and another one refilled cause I was having sensitivity issues.... I'm still numb. My tongue and lips feel huge and I can't smile straight. Hope it wears off soon cause I'm HUNGRY and would like to eat without unknowingly chewing my tongue, cheeks, or lips. Have a good day yall :)

BREAK.

Utah...this is the place.

• The place where every time I step outside I literally think I'm going to freeze while in motion.

This is my neighbors snowman. Even though his coal smile and one coal button fell off he just looks so cute and happy!

• The place where my friend Laurie Lee teaches a Zumba class and I went the first night I got here....and it was AWESOME.

My BFF from high school. She is thee BEST zumba instructor, seriously she has energy for days!

• The place I got to and stayed for less than a day before we road tripped to Vegas for a day and a half. Short trip but we made it count!

My friend from Vegas took me and my sissy out! This is at Blue Martini.

• The place where blizzards look fun....but it's a trick, cause they really arent.

Of course as soon as were ready to leave the house a snow storm hits. I HATE being cold.

• The place where I officially became the best Loser at Rumikub.

L for LOSER. Yes my mom was teasing me.

• The place where my pretty pregnant sister is....and her baby kicked me!

My Mom, Melissa, and Mele adoring the baby bump aka my niece!

• The place where there hasn't really been a dull moment...until now, which is why I have the time to blog.

Christmas night out at The Hotel.

• The place where at least people are apologetic about their crimes. :)

Downtown Salt Lake City. I thought it was pretty funny.

My holiday break has been awesome. Family time has been great. Sister time has been lovely. Shopping despite low funds has been awesome. The thought of school starting in a short couple of weeks makes me sick to my stomach. BLEH.